All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

hmmm.. asked people to update blog... then kena complained for not updating my own.. at least i did it on mon.. they all had post since last thurs lor.. was thinkin of what to write.. better dun write about those ppl on top.. well.. mayb my history...

my life is quite bad.. had a very deprived childhood. many will say yar lah.. study so hard one.. go that type of skol.. haha.. actually i din.. when i was young my life revolved around my poor health.. had childhood asthma.. still have a lile now lah.. so had such poor health.. had so called 'worms' in my stomach.. was so skinny.. my parents and extended family was so scared that i would never grow so big.. to my parents.. they are very happy with my size now.. cos its a miracle that i actually grew that big! haha...

due to my sickness and the strictness of my parents beliefs in toxic in food.. i was BANNED from many many types of food! well seafood... chicken.. the list goes on till i was about p4... so i dare say that food does not really tempt me anymore.. well.. i guess so.. haha.. cos it was the self control that i was forced to excercise during that period that i just got used to it... and it did help, abstinance of food, with my condition.. :D..

but yet i eat many mnay different types of food that many people may have never tried in their lifes i guess... crocodile meat.. almost everyday.. a gift from my grandparents.. hehe.. and well much more other types too lah..

then aft i recovered from my asthma and the 'worm' thingy.. another condition started... when i injured myself.. i would not bleed.. but this liquid will start to flow.. does not end there... it flows non-stop.. and starts to rot! it gets bigger... took me about half a year to actually recover from that thing lor! and it was really God's power! allthe medicine that i took.. lotions.. even had copper nitrate from a doc to burn the thing DIDN'T work!!!!! and then i started to wash it with PLAIN HOT! WATER.. praying over it.. twice a day.. many thought i was insane to do that.. but then it worked!!! the thing healed in weeks!!!!! wow!!!

its amazing on how God really works at times.. and well God is so wonderful.. He, actually thru all these, matured me and prepared me... for a greater cause.. at first i thought it was a curse on my life to be so dreadful.. but now God is good.. see things thru the eyes of God.. He might just be preparing u for a greater cause.. for me.. there is a greater cause.. but He is yet to reveal it.. and continually trust God.. He will show the way!!! :D

well sound crew is a back stage thingy.. i bet u dun understand me lah.. but just look at shows... does the sound man ever get recognised? yes lah.. the short line at the back.. well.. thts recognision.. lemme help speak on behalf of all sound man.. without a sound man.. i doubt that any tom dic or harry could make a mixer last for 4 years.. with its speakers and all decks in proper condition.. and the special effects and all that.. saving the money for each and every company on equiptment that can cost up to 30,000 buckeroos!!!!! believe it with all the other decks.. one day if all sound man in the world would go on strike i think all the recording studios and television studios will close dwn.. think that any tom dick or harry go mend ur console? haha..within 2 year expect to change it lor.. thats all i can say..

but most of the time sound mans do not even be looked upon as any one.. they are just sitting there.. pushing some faders and turning some stupid colorful nobs... ez job wad.. try it urself.. its so so so ez eh? however.. i think that putting me into this position of know being acknowledged is cool! well it gets bad as it come 2..3.. years... really tiring with no support but from those in the same situation.. but it help me sharpen the edge of my humility and presses dwn the pride.. at least i dun so things for recognision lor... so yar i m not.. most of the time just pulling ur leg about this... :D

when one goes another comes.. the old must go before the new must come.. u dunno what's going on in my heart.. i have no idea.. i very much want.. but will leave it to God.. cos i know that it must be God approved to be a good relationship.. if it really God's plan.. i will surely go ahead... dreaming and think if u is a torture... and now talkin to u leaves emptiness.. its no more lust.. infatuation.. cos i know u.. and thats the difference.. i know that u are inperfect.. but i really would not want to be with u too.. it'd be a torture to a person that i like a lot.. time is the factor.. haiz... God be with u! :D

results are coming out.. but in all i've learn.. gove thanks.. this is what my lile bro tole be.. i was taken a back.. ashamed of myself...

"in all things we must give thanks rite?"

YES WE MUST.. AND AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSEHOLD...WE WILL SERVE THE LORD!!!

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 10:46 PM

i.S. t.h.i.S. t.h.e. e.n.d. o.R. t.h.e. S.t.a.R.t.