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Sunday, April 18, 2004

.. thinkin aft a long while...

i feel a like lousy.. as in stupid.. i dunno why.. jus went blog reading.. erm from one blog to another to another.. then i got to tok's blog.. hmmm.. was really refreshingly good lah.. in that sense that hmmm.. i just suddenly felt that i was not the only 'dumbo' leaving my deepest thots on a public blog which is at the mercy of read's scrutiny and judgement.. guess that there are much more thing added in as well..

really enjoy listening to how people speak their mind.. their feelings.. whats within.. reminds me a lile of my first post.. remembered what i said.. bot exact lah.. but well my blog will not be used for some daily report of my day or something.. well it serves its purpose on one hand.. being able toi account for how i actually spent a day without u.. but its like so formal.. like stupid report of my own.. mayb it should just be where i place my thots and stuff.. really hope that iSA does not really looking into blogs and IP addresses and stuff lah.. if not i'd be really in deep trouble when i do so.. esp on certain things..

a haven of mine own.. of thots and recollections.. of love and hate.. or joys and sorrows.. of pain and pleasure.. pouring out feelings can just be so refreshing.. and it also serves another purpose.. as what selina put to my attension.. it also serves as a support to people.. to tell others.. hey u are actually not the only one going this thru.. and are not going thru this alone.. however.. wherever.. we will always be there to support each other.. with the help of the mobile or the phone.. we are always connected.. always supporting.. even in the class blog.. that brought about a realisation of such a thing.. hmmm.. so maybe having a taggie would bring about a new perspective.. or maybe so.. hmm.. oh mayb i will have another blog or something that functions as a support grp for people not of 1t07 first intake.. well cool isnt it? maybe when i get my laptop and the time then i will put word into feat.. :D

its been long since i actually wanted to think for a post on this.. i actually wanted to use my brains for anything.. i actually m basically slacking.. oh thats just my trademark to do so.. and well my profession too.. but then.. its good again to start thinkin.. love the thinkin processes.. love the pain and headache it gives me.. and well talkin to myslef doesnt really help me think.. there isnt really much to think.. just some nonsense and then bang.. kram(i) and mark are both talkin to everyone and to each other.. its just some plain nonsense that not many people are WILLING to try out.. its not that they are unable.. just unwilling... but its just crap and stress relieve.. just dun turn it to real life and its safe.. but then for me it is.. what type of a person can actually have 3 or more diff characters at the same time.. ability to split them and connect them to become one person? hmmm its just the extremes of a person coming out and not allowin ghte other extreme to balance it to be neutral.. ok i see that blur face there.. take for example light.. its made up of 7 colors.. and well the ability to split light to is extremes into the 7 colors.. but then when the diverse colors come together again.. it then again forms one.. yup.. and one very soothing color.. mayb i m not really a very soothing person as i add all my characters together.. but then there are some which are better than others.. like the caring one against a sadistic character.. i would choose the sadistic one over the caring one.. hmmm.. just some reasons lah.. but heck for now.. hehe..

really wish i could really go crazy one day.. hmm and i really wonder who actually reads my blog.. esp from t07 and class extended.. hmmm.. lets do a test.. who wants to watch 50 first dates.. we will watch it at shaw towers at bugis.. cos its really MT.. so might as well just go there and the whole class will automatically 'own' the whole theature lah... y not? hmm.. so pls do tell me the dates that u are free and if u are interested anot..

oh yar.. talkin about readin my blog.. tong.. really glad that u finally made up ur mind in TP.. hope u have fun.. esp with the travelling... actually there's not much diff with NP oso lah.. take 969 dwn.. quite fast if u do not have to travel thru yishun.. or mayb 168.. then i will really wanna visit ur sch everyday.. haha.. but hope u have fun with the hospitality course there! and yeah enjoy!! :D

oh man i should have gone to TP lah.. its like so near her house lor.. but then NP is near to her sch.. JUST half an hour only lah.. JUST uh? :Þ but its all worth the travel.. :D but then TP's like so darn near ur place lah.. have excuse to go there at least rite? nvm.. use tong as the excuse lah...

oh dunno y just feel like typing about the josephians that have gone thru think and thin with me those years.. but then its really tedious.. so shall not carry on that much.. ok and i do admit.. i still m missing those shit day... the type of days that will kill u but yet with the friends and fellowship.. bleh bleh.. whatever.. haha.. but then i tell u.. sch's WAY better than working!!!! really... rite tong and jaime? LoL... oh man.. and workin my job really rocks lah.. as in u slog damn hard oso for dunno what.. no money is going to my pocket.. and i dun really know if i can claim my transport anot.. so shitty lah.. dunno lah..

ok shall go get my dinner and watch the last part of Lord of the Rings - Fellowship of the Ring.. extended vcd version lah.. and no manda its not some porn with an innocent title.. and she gave me a title lah... guess what..? "Finding Nemo..."

haha.. oh well i miss all the t07 first intake people.. so when u feel un-loved or un-thot about.. rmb i still care.. jus gimme a call.. i will TRY to entertain u.. haha.. even if i dun have time for her.. i will have some for u all..! hehe..! nah.. but yeah.. just that my hp bill's going to explode and so will my mum's head.. and my head will.. i say WILL roll! yup cya guys arnd..

and for all ex-josephians.. when is founders day? lets meet and go back wanna not? i miss sji and u guys.. and hehe.. teh founder's day dinner 100 bucks per pax.. hmmmz... haha.. any generous soul here? wanna treat the whole class? LoL

God bless all

ps: my hair stinks.. somebody save it! should i just shave it off? hurmph!

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 6:32 PM

i.S. t.h.i.S. t.h.e. e.n.d. o.R. t.h.e. S.t.a.R.t.