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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

a thot from yesterday..:

memories will always be memories when it is not showered with love..
so whats the use of memories when the friend isnt urs to keep anymore?
therefore treasure what u have.. the people that treat u well.. dun let it stay with memories only..

sadism

sitting here.. feeling bad.. when all the things are not going well.. the feeling of rejection rocks lah.. the feeling of being outta place rocks...

how on earth do u think i feel? when i make the everyone one feel welcomed at UR home.. and i dun feel so? how do i deal with it.. i dun care...

i'm in a sadistic and bad mood.. want to hear what to do to relieve stress? oh u dun.. i already tell u i m sadistic....

dun let me see u happy.. i hate to see people happy when i m sad.. cos i mourn when u mourn.. do u?what more.. i m sadistic.. i feel happy when i see u sad.. i m sadistic lemme remind u...

i m pissed.. with myself.. with everything.. isnt that cool? thats just me.. and i m pissed.. and dun wanna spoil ur fun and ur happiness.. what ever.. i wish that i was alone... not to burden anyone with anything.. cos i m to be burdened and not be a burden.. i m to serve and not to be served.. and whatever.. i m selfish.. i wanna keep this feeling to myself and not share.. this joy in the feeling of pain and sadness.. i m sadistic after all...

it been so warm the past few days.. i m sick.. guess i m sick and tired of the shit i get everyday.. everywhere i go.. i m ur slave.. fcuk me... kill me.. eat me.. gnuat my flesh out.. feast on my labour.. and plot against me.. i love the feeling...

my heart is broken... shattered.. i m broken inside.. torn apart by myself.. the words i speak my just be of another joke and sound like one.. but i m crying crying hard.. crying bad.. its not easy.. not at all.. and i know its not easy for u too.. thats y it pains me even more!

i wish my life had 48 hrs a day.. then i can do so many things.. but then.. haiz.. whatever.. live and let live? shit and let out shit? haiz... live with what i can and have lah... if u see me dead.. means i dun have enough.. pls dun mourn at my funeral.. rejoice... i have gone to heaven.. and i m gone.. yeah..

sadism

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 8:41 PM

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