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Friday, May 28, 2004

i'm going to sleep.. too...


heya.. its the end of the week.. and looks like its been a really long long week.. and nother one that is to come..

above that i have no money... sad rite? LoL.. haiz.. i m just so so so tired and at a found.. lost i mean.. with my thots.. haha.. well had such a long day today.. never thot it would be this long.. anyhow.. went for a swim.. had a drink with two of my friends for a while... rushed home for dinner.. and came out again to meet them for a show.. day after tomorrow.. was pretty good.. yeah.. had some good laughs and some dwn moments.. yeah..

i have an ulcer at the underside of my tongue.. hurts quite a bad bit lah.. and its really getting unto my nerves liao lah.. ugh..

well twins are scarey.. i really have to admit.. they are people that u will always wanna meet in ur life.. but when that happens.. oh gosh.. its just so scarey.. you will never know till it happens..

my thots are just flowing in in paragraphs.. so dun mind my untardyness and this whole mess if there is an audience arnd.. but i m just tired and sleepy.. not in the real mood to think about stuff in dept.. maybe my laptop should follow me into the toilet next time.. and u will get much better entries than this one.. LoL.. too bad this chair isnt a toilet bowl lah.. *sighs*

to begin the spark..
when affinity draws the parts..
to say 'i love you'..
to hear these three words..
to know that u are there...
to know that i still care...
to know what was, still is...
to know that we had to...

to hope that it will last...
to hope that all goes well...
to hope that we will past..
the dawning of the dreadful waits...
to hope that tmr never comes...
to hope that decisions ne'er be made..
to hope that this will be for eternalty..
to hope.. and i did..

to think that all is well..
to think that u are all..
to think that problems ne'er come..
to think that it is a tale...
to think that 'happily ever afters' will be ours..
to think that you are all i need..
to think that, i m wrong..
to think that i had to wake up..
before Death befalls..

to love you is all i did..
to love you with all my heart..
to love you with all i did..
to love you just too much..
to love you i still do..
to love you is to know the best for you...

i want to love you still..
i want this to last...
i want this ne'er to end..
i want this to be God driven..
i want this to be of God's plan..
i want you to know...

to live without you is a pain..
to live with you seeing u suffering is a greater pain..
its a feeling from within that i cant describe..
to see both just tire out...
to see an unsightly note..
to sense that unwilling tone..
to make out the meaning between the lines..
to know..
to realise..
to act..
to end.

to know we lived in a lie- a disappointment..
to continue living in a lie- a greater threat to ourselves..
how long more, then, are we going to carry on lying to ourselves?
till one of us really burns out?
till one of us really drops dead?
i cant bear to lose you.
but i cant bear, even more, to see u unhappy and tire out slowly.

i t s 3 a m . . o f f i c i a l l y . . i m , t i r e d . .

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 2:11 AM

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