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Saturday, May 22, 2004

partially back in action


well hi all.. hope that the title changed and well.. i'm back as the cranky crazy insane mark again.. well not much of it lah.. appearently.. i was ok just now.. actually the whole day..until now.. 1am.. maybe its becos i see mails in work box... and then must work.. or maybe i'm just tired and having my mood swings or something.. LoL..

anyway.. the best place to think.. toilet.. i was thinkin and bathing at the same time.. ok lah.. sounds obscene lah.. but toilet's the best place for me.. and no dirty thot.. surprisingly.. just sadistic for today lah.. mayb thats y the mood..

i m a sadist... that many of u know.. haha.. and well.. i was thinking.. well i do thinks that i will harm me rite? so its like damn weird lah.. i make myself feel sad.. so that i can be happy.. its like i beat myself and i feel shiok what.. so i make myself feel sad.. so that i can be happy.. makes logical sense.. but doesnt also... its like happily sad.. hahah... and i hate to study.. and studying is a torture to me.. so i study so that i can torture myself while studying.. but its supposed to be harmful yet it isnt.. haiz... i must really be insane..

anyway.. dun care about my nonsense and weird ilogical theories.. i m a lile off.. and i bet many of u must be glad that i went on a vacation from nonsense talking rite? but then if u really find it out.. then just leave lah.. no one's stopping you.. just a spell cast on u that will make u read on... haha.. lalala.. u are stuck to the screen.. if not prove me wrong lah... [methink that this cock talkin in the middle is like some advert to next vinet yup.. ]

haiz.. had medical today.. was like rushing thru getting lunch out and bro who supposedly woke up earlier than me.. was cooking telephone porridge.. haiz.. then when everything was almost prepared.. he came in and started ordering things arnd.. what the heck rite? think he always king.. he said mark i give u an agg u help me fry.. i was like u go do it urself lah.. i m rushing for my appt lah.. and then just walked off.. then i rush off aft lunch took a cab from clementi mrt lah.. about 6 bucks.. then had my medical done.. haha.. was really ok lah...

haha.. told u that u are stuck.. still reading rite? stop lah.. will just miss how bastardy the mcc people are.. haha.. and my pes... lalal...and how sadistic and stupid i can get lah.. LoL...

so was there at 140.. cab ok! but then was made to wait for another half an hour before i went up to them to ask them again.. then only an officer came out to bring me to destination.. nvm shall skip what i did for medical and all lah.. but then the medics were really stuck up lah.. talk to u as if they boss like that.. but then rank is like shit.. i was at the last station.. then went into the room lah.. then the guy at the counter called me.. so u walked up.. thinkin that i could get any briefing or information.. he just pointed at the wall saying.. read that instructions and do... was like damn toot attitude lah.. toot lah.. nvm... then the inefficiency was not that bad.. the attitude oso can lah.. but then the really shit thing uh is the negligence was better still.. see the stations are like napfa thingy lah..so at each station u will be graded pes a b c and so on.. i was at the VISION tESt... yeah the color... hahah.. i m color deficiency rite? and then there were 4 charts lah.. let me name it A B C and D lah.. so yeah.. i couldnt see the no. in a... so i read B C and D lah.. then i read 5 for C but it was actually 6.. then he asked me what C was again and i said 6.. yeah.. and i really din touch A at all ok... and he just skipped it with me.. givin me a pes A for that station.. i was just so shocked at the negligence.. haha... nvm at least it got me thru to what i want.. :D anyway i was supposed to be in pes a lah.. until the last station.. yeah.. shall go into a lile details here.. ask me to take shirt off.. leaving shorts and underwear lah.. yeah then dunno do what test lah... haha.. think its blood preasure or somthing like that.. then aft that went into the clinic.. first he aske me to touch my toes.. man i think those guys are gay..! LoL.. then asked me to pull down my pants and underwear.. dunno for what lah.. (GAY!!!!!!) b4 pulling up.. asked me to quickly cover mouth and cough.. so that i can have my pants dwn longer i guess.. (GAY) then asked me about my back.. cos i wrote it in the paper.. ask me how i got it.. judo.. knee.. judo.. blah blah lah.. then i think it was becos of that that got me into pes BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!.. haha.. and that was what i was praying for lah.. the sadistic thing is that.. my cousin.. was in pes A.. kept reminding the doc of his fractured wrist and op.. so that he could be pushed to pes C.. but couldnt.. the most was pes B.. LoL.. and then another friend came up to me and asked me about it.. and he was like y? u should have just declared and say that ur back this ur back that and ur knee gets painful every now and then.. i bet sure pes D one.. the most pes C3.. haha.. i was like.. yeah man.. but then i was oso thinking.. yeah i must get thru this lah.. help fam with money load oso.. so think that this is really a God given thingy lah... thank you God.. hahaha.. and certain things happened in btw that made me VERY shaky.. my file went missing.. then my another file was found somewhere.. dunno.. many many complications lor.. so yeah.. that was how still they are lah...

then aft that was like deciding on where to go.. bf couldnt meet me as s/he was going to leave in half an hour.. haiz.. gf din reply me until i was on the taxi.. so i was like ok uncle send me to tanjong pagar mrt.. then thot for a while.. ah forget it lah.. go to yishun straight.. damn lah.. ngiam ngiam got traffic jam on CTE and the uncle oso dunno.. was supposed to be 10 odd one... become 15 bucks.. but the uncle oso nice lah.. had a good chat with him in the taxi.. altho` i always do that to cabbies.. find out more of their lifes and all that.. haiz.. thats y i really sympatise with them lah.. and with my father and bro being anti taxi drivers.. i really have nothing to say lah....

think i should take a retreat more often.. it does help in my emotional and mental and spiritual.. of cos... state.. cos when my spirit is rite.. my everything esle oso rite.. haha... but i like to be wrong oso.. cos it oso makes me happy to be wrong.. cos its a torture to myself and i just m doing that.. its so fun.. yet not so fun.. hmmm.. paradox! hahah... sadist only inflict physical pain on themselves.. i m o a high calibre.. i inflict emotional mental and internal pain upon myself... pls do not learn from me.. haha.. and soon my blog will be classified under ISA survellience and PG and SCB (singapore censorship board).. haha.. and what more to come... :D

i just took one hour to screw u up even more.. and to let u realise that i m leading a good life... yeah! better than you how have to suffer!! muahaha..

Quotes:

(?)... she flirted with me.. and i can see it.. so what should i do.. all that i know is that i dunno.. hahaha...(?)

Troy: Fame and death works hand in hand... when a war is won, the King is remembered.. the people pay tribute to the king... not its warriors..

Smallville:
Clark: at first i thought it was lana,but i could never be honest with her. then Alisah, because she was like me.

Mum: but sweet heart, there's nobody like you...

Clark: mayb that means i'll always be alone...




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