All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Friday, June 25, 2004

what isnt yours.. wont be yours.. no matter how hard you try..

Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABCs
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
But all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and i'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we've climbed were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa,please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how i got along

Goodbye papa it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Litle children everywhere
When you see them, I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

Good-bye Michelle, my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And everytime that i was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

Good-bye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish in the beach
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
All our lived we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we've climbed were just seasons out of time

give it up.. harden it up.. over come it.. dun hide from it.. face the truth.. you have to do it.. strengthen yourself.. toughten up.. u have to go thru this.. be strong.. focus.. know urself.. know what God wants from you.. know that you have to move to the objective... harden it up...

dun you soften again.. dun you think about the whole issue.. dun u start.. dun dun dun.. messy messy messy!!!! ugh.. this just isnt the mark lai that i know.. where have your passion and drive gone? where has your determination gone? where have you obedience gone? how much more do you wanna suffer within yourself..? how much more do you wanna allow this to eat you up? how much more do you think u can rely on yourself.. dun allow to let it start again.. dun allow.. no!

tear drops fall like rain..
with every strike of pain..
trying to be faint..
from the live filled in vain..

what then have my heart found?
or has it travelled in just rounds?
climbing mounts and river lounge..
getting back outta bounds?

slowly slowly they always say...
but when will it recover? what you say?
for it shall never take a day..
a month.. a year.. or at the end of my way?

fearful.. demoralised.. agonised.. suppressed..
some feelings i cant express..
to more of which i cannot say..
please listen i beg in vain..

who is there for me?
when i listen and help?
when i stretch my hand out..
when i really need that help..

Oh God oh God.. do not forsake me...
a sinner i m.. foolishness i stand..
oh God oh God.. please hear my cry..
here i will beg.. plea for mercy and cry..

ashes on head.. knees sored and pain..
i cry to thee.. please help me again..
it comes back.. efforts are all in vain..
i m haunted by it yet again..

does it always have to end this way?

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 10:44 PM

i.S. t.h.i.S. t.h.e. e.n.d. o.R. t.h.e. S.t.a.R.t.