well well.. disappointed i may be.. but then i still can say that God's love is overwhelming and that i m back to who i m and who i was.. in other words.. hi hi.. i still care..

to those that have shown their care and concern.. actually only like one? haha.. i really ireally like to thank you from the bottom bottom bottom.. okie cannot go any lower.. my heart not so deep... of my heart... really thanks! appreciate it like LOADS!!! i think no amount of thanks can actually tantamount the care that u have shon.. lile it may be but it was more than any other.. therefore..  it would mean that it meant the world to me.. thanks., :)

sometimes i really wonder why do i share so much of my weaknesses in this page.. and haha.. i was still think about it.. looks like the best place to think and get rite ans is STILL the toilet.. haha.. well its to let people out there who share the same weakness know that you are not alone.. but there are people out there who share the same weakness.. and that u are not there alone.. that you are not to know that u are alone.. to those who do not dare to share the weakness and let people know.. let it come out.. let it be known.. its more brave to shar ur weakness than those who do not share and dare not share.. those are the real cowards.. the ones who do not dare to share what they are really scared of..

the people that i despise the most are those that have read this and then act indifferently to other people.. who still do not care about others... who think that the world still revolves arnd them.. who thinks that they are god of this universe and they rule everything.. i'm sorry but u suck..

yeah to those who are still wondering if i m okay already.. all i can say is that i m hungry and yeah that means that my apetite is back.. so u think and infer.. :D

i initially was thinkin of closing this blog dwn.. anyway.. i'm sure only like a hand full of people come and read this blog anyway... well haha.. and i was also having a lot of problem making my new blog skin.. its rather horrible lah.. and well i think that i will just offer this page to God and let Him do what he wants me to blog in here.. cos i know that i have really nothing to type here anymore.. the people/person that is supposed to read this is no more there and what so ever...

you gave me reason..

but i took you away..

you gave me love..

but i declined it..

my love stil flows..

its whether you want to take it anot..

well u said no..

with ur action..

ur words..

ur life..

ur attitude..

or mayb it just my fault..

for opening my love and letting it flow..

so lets say..

its my fault..

cos i care..

and thats whats hurtin me..

myself..

the person that i love..

i know can hurt me the most..

will hurt me a lot..

and yet..

i m stubborn

and its just too late..

cos it matters no more..

my heart is harden..

thou it loves..

but even if its stopped by harden hearts

it hurts no more..

i've learnt to be strong..

i've learnt the hard way..

so please forgive me when i seem indifferent..

cos it just hurt me too far..

i dare not at times..

i dare not now..

i dare not...

i'm weak..

thots that comes and goes..

its just thots..

but if i really had learnt that lesson

love no more and hate every one..

i think my first para then makes no sense...

hating someone is tiring.. hmmm... its really true..  cos i have never hated you.. and loving someone is tiring too.. but then it flows from God and it doesnt stop.. its whether u wanna tap on it anot.. well i thank God for that then.

a friend lost.

a tear dropped.

a heart breaks.

words cant describe.

a torture within.

you never know

its unexplainable.

u dun care.

i try not to.

but to me

its all in vain.

you never know

whats truely within

my fault

myself to blame

thinkin too much

too much of you

but it matters not

not many more

this is the last

the last for you.

the last from me.

i wish you

good luck

God bless

godsped

take care

sincere

from the bottom of my heart

i say

good bye

vanished from your life

vanish from my life

save me from the torture.

save me from the pain

take me away from you

if u really do not care.

cos it hurts me inside.

good bye....