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Monday, August 23, 2004

oh bother..


there's suddenly a lightness in my heart.. this peace that surfaces.. this smile that i question.. why cant i wipe off... this feeling.. so familiar.. this love.. so overwhelming..

thanks all for your concern and care.. really appreciate it loads.. its been of much help to me.. thou you din do anything.. haha.. well.. you showered me with love... but somewhat.. someone else was the vessle of the work done.. subtle as it was.. yet so amazingly real and powerful.. the mention of the person.. the thot of my actions.. the realisation of my selfishness... the opening of my eyes.. the softening of my heart..

guess i can carry on with my intended post.. and pray that i will stay this way for a long while.. cos i really miss this feeling.. this lightness of heart.. this life.. with God.. awww.. how i miss those times.. :) its the chioce that i will have to make daily.. to struggle with in campus and make my stand on what i to project and to show in my life... i started off bad... and now its time to put things bck into place.. to allow this love to overflow again.. and to allow self control to be practiced..

yesterday.. intended to watch AVP with jae one... she is one person who can put a smile to my face no matter how bad.. cant really get angry with her one.. haha.. ah wells.. couldnt make it... had like 3 hours of slp the nite before thanks to my lovely brother.. shall tell u later.. but then really sad cant go watch with them.. really miss jae while a lot.. havent talked to her in ages... haiz.. oh wells.. shall drag her out one of these days and talk to her...

church was herm.. good.. and not so good and good lah.. overall it was good.. :) oh yeah.. and the gals in my youth grp are rich lah.. oh wells.. princesses... they had sakae sushi for lunch and the guys had our usual long johns.. how pathetic rite? and these gals really do know how to spend.. oh... hahah.. yeah i was jsut talkin about u all.. hahaha.. *rolls eyes*.. erm.. well well.. its been a while since i had a good time with God.. and today wasnt still... i really miss those times man..

i'm supposed to be studying now for a paper later in the morning.. dad said he'd send me dwn.. yay! ahhah.. for once... cos there is always a jam at bukit timah.. so it cant be blamed lor... and erm... the paper's at 9.. supposed to wake at 7.. its coming 3 now and i havent actually finished with my revision.. actually i din know the details of when the paper was til erm.. day b4... and i got the timing wrong til about a few hours ago.. haha.. almost went to sch at 1 for a 9 am paper... cool eh? and hence that explains why i m doing last min midnite studying.. cos i thot it all the while was on fri.. haha.. oops.. but anyway.. this is the time that i m most alert... oh wells...

singapore table tennis gal din make it.. i have absolutely no comments.. but rather.. if i do ever get to see her.. i'd like to congradulate her even.. cos under such immense pressure and competition.. she was able to smell the medal was good enough already.. i couldnt say that she was lousy.. with complains about her.. but i'd to say that if she really was so.. then she wouldnt have made it that far.. and i know my own limitations too.. if i cant do it.. i have absolutely no rights to complain or gourse about her...

i realised that there actually are alot of people that are like me.. really bored.. having the opportunity to visit the same blog a few times in a day.. hahah.. erm... sometimes i really wonder who comes to my blog and takes a look at it.. and reads it content and laughs at it.. or jsut out to critise it only to realise that there aint no taggie here... hahah... something that happened to dan's blog that makes me laugh.. but also.. makes me curious to who actually pops by here.. those jus browsing the web for somethings... and accidentally coming here.. am i a blessing to you? or have i stumbled you?

there is much to share.. many words to speak.. yet can be expressed in just mere words... i have to go back to study and try to slp by 330... being half awake for tmr's paper.. oh.. like the sleeeping buddha kung fu.. haha.. then i slping mark lai writing.. damn.. i'm fail the paper tmr.. cool.. hahah.. oh well.. i shall blog agin tmr when i m home and free.. gosh i have alot of things to do...

i'd jsut like to thank all those who have shown concern to me.. dwn as i was.. u did ur help and telling me that i wasnt the only person on this earth.. you helped me know that i wasnt the only one who cared and knew how to.. in ur lile ways u showed me that this world wasnt that cold.. that this God.. was real..

oh and one more thing.. doesnt anyone actually update consistantly? ugh... im really bored and need some entertainment to read from you know... :Þ

to be continued.. wurk wurk

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 2:37 AM

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