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Thursday, September 09, 2004

why should i be jealous, when all i have is, everything..


thats the title that came to me for today, so later i shall blog about something of that sort and my yesterday. i'm still living in yesterday's hour, but what should i be jealous of, why should anyone worry of and for me, when all i have is everything that i need.

cos God is everything to me, and thats all that matters to me. the things that i have, its already a miracle that i have them. so what more can i ask for. this second that i m living is due to the fact of grace acting on me and God's love providing me with everything. how i pray that one day i could totally just live off the abundance of His love and blessings. which means i will live a life that i own nothing. wanna live that life with me? : )

ok lets talk a lile bit on wednesday first. it was someone's birthday, and his friends wanted to him a birthday bashing lah. but then, with 3 acs and one sji guys, we decided against it, for something else . . . strip him.. LoL.. with 4 gals in class.. we sang him the traditional song and then with our all boys sch tradition, we just went in, grabbed him, having him put up a fierce struggle, kicking me a few times as i was at the legs, and our national rugger went in, and brought him dwn. then another undid his jeans and with a kick from him again, his pants flew out.. i was holding on to his pants lah, and he kicked me, so it automatically came out. i thot that was all thou, but heard that someone lifted his underpants, well that was going overboard thou. felt rather bad, cos he wasnt really happy the whole two hours after.. in sch, it was rather a good thing to get stripped, at least people remembered ur birthday, or even bothered to go after u, and with high profile too.. LoL.. or u are the person involved in the process.. LoL... but think its a different background that we come from to have such a reaction to it. still, the pulling of his underpants was a lile too much...

after the strip i walked back to the back and then did a yeah!!!! loudly.. haha.. was rather fun and refreshing lah.. really missed gang bangs and piles and wassssups in CJ and SJI... love them... haha.. and strips during camps too... LoL... was sos o so so so fun.. till i heard about the underwear issue..

after which i had no more strength to do anything already.. afterall it was the last two hours of the day.. before that, i armed wrestled with this buggar who could do about 40 pullups for 5 mins and 45 secs... he is talling and more defined a body than mine... anyway who's isnt? LoL.. and then another for another few mins.. won the first sommore.. LoL... then arm very tired liao.. sian liao.. then bring guy dwn sommore.. LoL...

and my bro is the smartest guy in the world.. like he makes sure he wont wash up and that i would always clean up after him.. as if i m not fired enough and do not have enough work.. oh well then say that i m petty, tell me the truth lah, if i clean up his mess almost everytime, spoiling him, he takin it for granted, m i petty? ugh... u never know what goes on in the damn shitty life of mark lai..

u wont see me online tmr.. cos i will not be at home from 7 am till 12 am... and its already 12..i have to wake at 6 and damn.. i still havent completed something, cleared the damned dishes that my bro left behind for me to.. cos there was a small portion of food and a hand full, literary, of rice left.. and hence, the almighty and gracious and kind and loving chee hong toot up a** ho mark has to go clean up the shit that people leaves behind nicely for me... so well.. think i will have 3 hours of slp and then run event tmr.. then die lah.. send me to IMH please... just lemme slp in peace for once... i barely have 5 hours of slp everyday for this WHOLE DAMNED WEEK!!!!!!!!! argh.. beat that on ur daily sch life.. i rech home at 7 or 8 or 10 everyday.. and leave at 7.. beat that on any of ur normal sch life... BEAT THAT with damn hell much of a projects and work i gotta catch up on and all the shit that people leaves behind.. damn use me like free.. just use me... USE the hell outta me till i drop dead!!!! BEAT THAT SHIT THERE........ tell me that u have a worse life than me.. find me ten people with that life... at my age... and tell me that i will not go crazy soon.. make me believe in that....

sometimes, in this tiredness, i feel like crying... but i know that it will only make me more tired after i do so.. it will only make me more sleepy and unproductive... and i really thank God for cher=tok=mommy!!!!!!! really really really thank God.. when in my down-nest and loneliest moments.. u always seem to be there.. to send a msg at the right time.. and thats enought to move me to tears... realy... and cant stop me from smiling myself sillie again... i really thank God for you... thats why

still, i feel more blessed than anyone of you...

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 10:32 AM

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