All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Sunday, October 24, 2004

toilet's the best place to be

when it all seems to be fake,
looks like i'll never wake,
so why dont we just make,
make this last another day...

argh... didnt slp long enough yesterday. argh.. this sucks lah... when i had the mood to blog i ahve to chat with a million and one other people... think shall just cont this later... time check 9:16, 24th oct... ugh...

11:36, 24th oct..

well its just a few hours away. better than expected, but worried that i might be stopped again. well i'll just do today and then wonder if there is still any much of myself left to cont with yesterday and the day b4, the two very exciting days spent. hahaha... and i think i shall be done backwards. its that interesting? like a reversed time line, from z to a instead., yeah u get what i mean...

well was talkin to twin just now.. this is getting scary, very, something that both of us caught from a show that was rather very lame, i caught that segment of the show, she stayed thru. "when u love someone too deeply, its intoxicating..." its true to a certain extend lah.. hahah... but sweet enough for a romantic comedy ending.. awwwwWwwww... think class chats are pointless. no one actually is interested in speakin. or maybe caught at the wrong time. moreover, topics shared arent the same anymore, interest is lost in the convo itself lah. sigh, maybe its jsut me, maybe its just ME... : )

went to the pasar malam at cwpt again with another good friend of mine.. the one that i hoped he gets his econs cleared and promoted.. yeah he did... yay! PTL for that.. even if he doesnt.. i still do.. :) anyway was out with him the rest of the afternoon after church.. met him at city hall. went to suntec to get a pair of shoes and went to get a drink and caught up with him, headed home and went to the pasar malam lor. had much fun with him lah; even with the limited and scarce time that we meet, we still know each other so well, maybe that goes for the bonding lah. no we were from different sec schs, but i really wonder how we did it so well lor.. with just eyes we could communicate, as if we frequently went out together, oh wells. but i miss that guy lah.. :)

church, guess heartware made me become a very good sales man for charity, for myself i guess its just about the last thing i will do. its like we were supposed to sell gospel beeds for fund raising, and i just sold it like that. ahhaha... think its the thick skin that comes with it lah. :) anyway it was a good time over lunch talkin and seeing sailow and the rest of the ymmers there lah. somewhat they had to see me for me to remind them about something lor. dunno. anyway church was ok lah.. jst was rather aggitated today cos of some happenings. and also the lack of slp for 3 days. so yeah. guess that was about it. fun and good reminder. hahaha...

sat and friday now.. i must say that this youth leadership is a siao one. really!! the meeting should be called the leadership grow fat meeting. about 7 of us chomped up about 7 packets of potato chips and only drinkin soft drinks, and chips... badddddd.... guess i put on weight due to that lah. and lunch was really bad, really very bad!!!! dun wan to describe it anymore le lah.. ew.. ahhaha.. but then the meeting was rather fruitful, now have to type proposal sommore.. ahhah.. anyway it was good a meeting lah.. but it was also due to the meeting that i had the lack of slp lor.. slept at around 330 cos i couldnt really slp, had to quieten myself dwn and all... and woke at 8 liddat.. then slpt at around 12am.. so how was i to not be tired? and i m actually stil up at this time now. guess i m training myself to be a machine lah. but i guess that there is really something very wrong with my body leh. its like the internal clock is screwed, i can only slp after 230 no matter what time i woke and how tired i was. or yesh, before 12. unless i m totally drained, i wont be able to do so. it sucks totally lor... badddddd... -_-

friday spent most of my time at home slackin and in church.. haha.. went to church and undid the entire setup that i put together the week ago.. heartpain uh... nvm lah.. shall go back one of these days again to redo it all again... heart pain uh.. nvm... hahhah... argh.. i m getting back into the habit of puncuating my sentences with the '...'s already.. this isnt really very good. but i think its due to the fatigue? the tiredness lah... and the very vague description of my days with no special highlights. hahah..

the previous entry was a forced out entry from a half dead man, hatin to see that his blog not being updated, not bearing the sight of the same entry and the distant date there, yet not having any content to write with, nor the strength to regurgitate out whatever that happened. hence such a nice entry with a million and one mistakes.. if u can correct the mistakes urself.. then i think i would sound nice.. and those are not plagiarised i warn you... :) anyway i dun ahve a taggie for that anyway... people like dutchgal and porn bots are really irritating lah... had seen enough to give me a reason not to add a tag or guest book or whatever... lalala... :) i dun care what u think, if u do care enough, it would show, but seems no one actually does really lah... ha... thats the truth of this world. each man for himself. i've loved it alone anyway..

so that my fingers could fit into that small hands

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 8:49 PM

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