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Friday, October 08, 2004

when i found out..

i think i M really sadistic or insane. something really bad happened to me before lunch, and i think if that happened to any of you, or to some, it may never happen, you will actually be poundin ur feet out and yelling at any other person that comes ur way, or maybe you wont even have the strength to do so.

the long awaited great self cooked lunch was finally ready, or so i thought, noodles and some left over food from yesterday, after heating up it took about half an hour for the whole process to be over, and i was entirely famished. so i took the pot of meat and poured it out into a plate and then moved the dark and oily noodles from the stove to the dining table, that was when tragedy struck! the bowl slipped off my fingers and fell into the floor, the noodles flew under the table with the bowl and created a mess on the floor. there went my precious lunch that i was anticipating :...(

but surprisingly, i didnt really feel that sad, or mad or angry or whatever. i just picked the bowl up, picked the noodles up, took a cloth, kneeled dwn and wiped the floor clean of noodle scrumps. took the mop and mopped the floor. and then cooked another packet of noodles to fill my stomach and heating up the meat again. guess i could control my emotions this time again. or did i? all i could do was to thank God... thank Him for:

the noodles not fallin unto the table where my LAPTOP was...
the noodles not spreading out and hitting the wall cos that would be a greater mess to clear..
the noodles not landing on me and scalding myself...
the other packets of noodles left!!! :)
the meat not spilling too, gravity on floor is worse than anything... gravy in laptop is going to be a heart break...
everything that did not happen that could very much likely happen.
for the food that i ate...

and i m not being a hyprocrite when i say all these, cos i was just smiling as i was doing the cleaning up, washing everything up to prepare to cook again... and in the washing up, it wasnt much fun, had a cut in my palm and the soap was going in, the pain was terrific. and still i could thank God. i really wonder what has happened to me. it was the Holy Spirit's guidence i guess, it sure wasnt me there smiling to myself as if something really good has happened. and i guess its even something thats not really very proud of, if i tell my parents, they will laugh. cos the kitchen to my family is like a playground, and it just runs in the blood, except for my blood.. hahah.. so yeah... whatever.. :)

anyway i guess i shall blog again later tonite if i've got anything to say lah, but most likely i'll be back really late. anyway, the disney magic cd is BEAUTIFUL.. hahah... the songs are really niceeee... :) ahahah.. and disney love hits is also beautiful, and i've got a mickey in my class.. haha.. he's super big size, national rugger, but looks like mickey.. haha.. cute rite? hmmm... think i shall go visit a very beautiful place too.. yet not so anyway . . .

i havent changed a least bit, when i sense it, i will back off, again...

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 1:05 PM

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