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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

my bulb is going to fuse

well, pun intended.

WARNINGS!

this entry might be repulsive due to its very nature of grousing. i'm really just complaining for the sake of it. oh wells. and mostly, its my fault. haha..

have you ever lived without a table lamp? it sucks! my table lamp bulb was fusing. it kept flickering nonstop, so irritating to the eyes! so i had no choice but to leave it off and use the room lights, but due to the fact that i seldom use my room's mains, i installed a rather LOUSY bulb which is rather deem, and my shadow casts upon the laptop. now, that spoils my eyes, not good not good!

and i couldnt get it, or i absent-mindedly forgot to get it when i could. ugh..... hahaha.. but finally i got it! ((: ok my parents got it, heh.

oh my gosh, i semi spoilt my earphones!!! that SEVENTY BUCKS earphones. i pluged it into the mixer at the other church (the system is really OLD), there was a very bad fraying of the sound, you know the test sounds, the "chhhhhhh....." with the sound output, hence causing the skin (membrane) of the higher frequencies at a louder volume (higher db) to be affected, i'm suspecting its torn or at least fractured, aka hairline tear, or even pulled, and loosen. so now when it reaches high frequecies, it has a fraying sound, i think most of you wont really notice it if not pointed out, but to me its really damn obvious, and its saddening. its since dec leh, and i wanted this earphones to last me till at least nov. but looks like its impossible already. nevermind, the next earphones would be the low end shure one. quite cheap for its brand, go check it out. ((:

i've never had a schedule as packed as this week, yet. monday was just a usual day, just that i had to go home and burn the midnight oil for a presentation the next day, of which we managed to get an extension of the deadline. so that day i slept as early as 4 am. and woke at 830. so monday was long enough a day, tueday was long too, well things happened i guess, and tired as i was, tired as we all were, memories overwhelmed. didnt sleep any late, had to wake up early today. 8-5 and then cf till late. oh and then tmr i've got cf at nyp, bringing some of my church friends there. then friday i've got to be in church to do a full setup for sound, drums inclusive, bahs. then sat is an event full day. but its a privilege to serve God, but i've really burnt an entire week with activities and school, ahhhhh... i miss my friends, i miss my free time. sobs.

my ipod is about three weeks old. and the back is scratched already. ok i know what i want to buy for my ipod. WANTS ARE BAD! hahaha.... i need an external charger *hint hint* to charge my pod. hehehe.... and i want to get a podwallet or something like that.. where one side is to slip in the ipod and the other flap is where i cna put three most impt cards there and some money stuffed somewhere. BUT, I DONT HAVE MONEY ): *hint hint*. no lah, i'm just kidding, i'm serious about the getting part and the no money part though. but i'm fairly broke now, and i'm seriously sinning, this extravagance, haiz.

ok i think thats all i have to complain about. however, just let me share with you something.

i cant complain that
i have no food to eat
i thirst in my meat
am always in need.

i grouse at my wants
life of extravagance
looking at the past
the things i lust.

but i truely thank God that i have a roof over my head, food on the table, water from the tap, a school to attend, internet to chat, and things to grouse about. i should always count my blessings, the friends around me, the things that i already have, the parents that love me, the family that exist, closest of closest, by inner circle. i truely thank God for everyone of you that God has placed in my life, a pain at times but shows more a blessing and humanity. i thank God me being me, in a course that cant get any worse, at least i know, i'm in a course. for the pain that amplifies the joys in my life, for the times that nights are all so lonely.

i thank God with me not having stuff, with me not being able to get things, i thank God for the irritating things that happen in life. i thank God, thank God.

so i guess i dont really have anything much to complain about, do i?

and by his stripes i am saved, and by his grace i am under

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 11:04 PM

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