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Thursday, July 27, 2006

fever day four,
then no more

i like that phrase, cos it rhymes! yay! *giggles*

but it was the most prolonged fever i've had, thought not continuous, if not i would have really fried my brains, and made me 'sot' (crazy), but having it off and on, and it wasnt the highest either, i've once forced myself to 40+ with sheer stubborn-ness. and above was to fulfill the i'm sot concept.

if not updating and being perpetually away and busy did not justify me having not enough time and being very busy. i guess having a flu the previous week and it coming back to haunt me with a four days fever and a two day confinement at home does now, DOESNT IT?! do i have to go on my fours and beseech anyone to plead for understanding with circumstantial evidence still?

even more fried brains

there's double boiled soup right? then would there also be double fried things? or would it just be charred brains? already being in while a bad shape with the lack of blogging, my brains also suffered inactivity, after this fever, its retention was decrease far worse than what you can imagine. lets say, goldfish level? but if ever i do ask you the same question repetitively within a 5 sec span, its time for me to make my trip back to IMH. might only get the best rest there, i need a totally brain bleaching, remove everything and then reload, sounds like formating, just dont try the conditioning part, mightn't be all too good.

after some reminding by a friend, who was listening to Disney's magic collection, i looked at the pile on my table and ripped the CD into the com. bad desicion, i must say, for now, i'm like listening to the whole collection, 2 cds, 44 songs, 2.5 hours, on like repeat, i'm totally addicted to it, its very nice, i can listen to it doing work, i can listen to it to sleep, i can listen to it travelling, i can listen to it almost anywhere, anytime, not like jazz where i can only listen it to nua, or some other genres. its really beautiful an album.. ((:

oh talkin about music, the song i'll be, its not by goo goo dolls, correction, its by Edwin McCain, my apologies. and i was lying when i said i wanted to listen to it ONE more time, not just. i found the song somewhere, after being desperate enough to actually go searching for it, and i downloaded it, and then i started the song and it played at least 7 times (on repeat) the moment it arrived outta the oven. ok i just like the song. very sweet.

to measure up to

we dont need each other to be happy, but i need (need?) you to feel this pain within, to know that i'm alive.

i've got people who make me happier than you do, and no matter what they do, what they did, i've never been angry with them, not as i have been with you. now that is called love.

if jealousy were a measure to my love

i enjoyed to a certain extend being sick. i like the idea of the sleeping in, and staying in for a while, and just having the luxury of the sick, its not like you fall sick everyday right? but this time, it was a little to long, it started on thursday night, fever day one, and i pushed myself to school on friday to try and rush through the project, not achieving much, it felt like crap to run a fever in sch, but mmm.. fun.. hahaha.. and then friday night, i had crystal jade compoy porridge (the plain one), see the luxury of foood, and then stayed in to watch teevee, went to bed rather early trying to sleep. and even with the medication in effect, i effectively slept at 12+, hahah! and woke at about 10, but waking up at three and sleeping at four plus only. it was quite disrupted sleep, which i didnt really enjoy having. i managed to finally catch up with teevee the whole of sat, being quite sick, and staying in the entire day, only going down to get food. the little enjoyments of life, staying home all day, tell me, how often do you get to do that? and watch teevee all day too? cos brains are too fried to be doing projects and whatnot. (yepps despite the fever and the regular feeling of being cold then hot and the cycle, thermal blankets are for something right?!)

sleeping earlier this day at 9, it was quite good to me, but also waking in between again, and then in the morning, i finally what it meant to have slept till your back hurt, my back was totally gone, i almost couldnt flip over, had to have my mum to actually help me a little with that. sighs. and then watching teevee again and then sleeping in the afternoon again. but i actually found a very good 'miracle' oil for muscular aches and such, go check what emu oil is, its from emu extract. its really good, at least for me it works like some mircale oil. and this was its test, i had it rubbed on my back and within minutes the pain was almost gone, really... sleep that night wasnt that good. i couldnt fall asleep, its something weird with my body lah. dumb body, and i tried to do my report, but nothing really came out too.

but i badly need a holiday, a rest. falling sick did mean more sleep then, but thereafter, as my body is still recovering, it still needs a lot of rest, and i'm still depriving it of the rest it needs. i've been feeling more tired now as my body is screaming out to me, but i just cant help it. anyone wants to gladly contribute to its deprivation?

then i am not loving you anymore.

i'm seriously not actually doing a post now, i'm just using this as a warm up to start my report, and i'm wishing that by this i could start my engines going and my creative factories running. but i'm still in the process of trying to move a creative arm, its only starting the engine.

but i already feel i'm liberated from it.

the hike in taxi fare. its rather scary, but its also a very sad thing for the taxi drivers, and they said that taxi rentals are also going to increase in price as diesel prices are also increasing. taxi drivers have become desperate for customers they would stop at any slight indication of a rise of the arm, or even just walkin towards the curb. i had this cabbie who slowed down when i was walking out into the busstop and he was like hoping i was going to be needing that taxi ride, i've seen an increased in taxis in my area, like they are really waiting especially during peak hours. but if you were to ask me, for the first period, it was be quite hard on them, but after a while, when it sets in and singaporeans are in a rush again, i guess business should get back to normal, or at least better than now. anyways, it is known that singaporeans are a forgetful bunch. however, with this hike in fare, its rather scary, we did our maths and if you were to call a cab during peak hours just to get to somewhere, it starts at 8.50, and if you were to get into CBD area, you trip would start at 1150, so for me, lets say to city hall, would cost me about 27? or even 30 bucks... insane? previously from that area with midnight surcharge wouldnt even cost me that. would i be insane enough to call for a cab still? nei! but would i avoid taking cabs altogether? not really. althought i would cut down, but at times its the choice given i guess. and the time taken, then the comfort. i guess sometimes its just to pamper. hahaha..

ok i dont know whats wrong with my guestbook, i cant seem to sign it myself, can someone tell me if it is signable? if not i would need help, cos i cant even remember the password to my account. how smart right? hahaa...

so i dont have much of a choice but to reply here..

bay: you blurr lah, had this quite awhile already. proves you dont visit.hahaha! ehhs your back like that how to play?

poledra: no no. i mean it, like the braised lamb or and the gongbao chicken, and when you get down late you get to eat the rest... the amount, and we the scrambled eggs, when you are early... haha.. well i cant discount them on those right? anyways, which club did you represent? didnt expect someone from NP to read my blog other than those i already know. so, welcome! ((:

the scent of death, so familiar, so dead

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 1:39 AM

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