All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Saturday, November 11, 2006

man's view, heaven's view

well, ignorance sometimes i (temporal)bliss, but then, knowledge allows us then to worship.

as much as i am not looking for a relationship, and not wanting to be in one. sometimes, i cant fight the feeling of hoping that someone could just fill the space between my fingers and share a moment with me. and then, i'll wake up from that dream, and start a nightmare just by thinking of the consequences.

its been a greattttt weeek. and the word that came to me was a scary one, it seems like the calm before the storm, and then i realised, why fear?

i got to meet twin 4 TIMES in a WEEK!!! heee heee hee.. ((:

and all in all, its been smiles, despite diarrhoea, smiles, despite having three continual days of headache, smiles, despite being very nuah and not wanting to work, smiles, despite being scared for that moment. smiles despite my ram and graphics are going to crash! smiles, for God has made my day in all.

and made my day, again, time and again.. as always..

twin, the one who shares it all.. thank God for you, thank you for being you. as you said. at least i dont feel so weird. at least i dont feel alone in this harsh one of a kind world! think you'll see her post here soon + add ons!

yesh i love my twin, its one way of telling myself, there's some proof that i love myself. (:

9 november, the day the Lord was gracious to me. wheeee...

it is these times, these memories, these joys that you people have given me that allows me to keep running on. and i deeply thank you, thank you all..

and as i started the week, everything already seemed too right, just too right, and as i ended the week, everything was near perfection, just me, the imperfect, the one that ruins it all. and i thank God for His lovingness.

and be sure, i never do sugar coat much about my faith, my religion, about almost anything. you should know. and if you have experience what i've experience through this period of time. i'm sure you'd be saying the same things i've said. experience God.

to whats coming ahead, this i say to it, come, and i will be tested, i know i might fall, and His mercies shall pick me up, come, and i will hurt, and i know His love will heal me, come, and i may fear, and His peace will surpass all confusion.

i cant weather with you,
if you arent willing to weather at all.
i cant run with you,
if you arent willing to let go of all.
i cant teach you,
if you arent willing to give up all.
i cant speak into you,
if you close in your all.

mental and emotional spaces
created not by distance
but by thoughts and differences
pretense and unwillingness.

secrecy is my life
divulgence at discretion,
hoping not to curse,
of those brought into knowledge.

bless them even more, Lord
for they need it.
x_x hahaha...

this week's gonna be a week i'll try to remember, to keep my joy, to keep my happiness, to keep me running. thanks people!!! thanks God!

nov 13.

prestige's a beauty?

i was told off by my mum for thinking too deeply, hahahaha... ouch.

laptop's dying. yeah. shiok.

without that portion of giving, i think i'll have quite a bit of luxury in this month, but now, its going to be quite a lot of sacrificing. i've learnt.

rawrs. there's unlimited wants, but not enough ends to meet the wants, rawrss.

me need dough! another two weeks, helppppp....

how? hahaha... siao liao lah...

abracadabra
secrecy is life

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 11:46 PM

i.S. t.h.i.S. t.h.e. e.n.d. o.R. t.h.e. S.t.a.R.t.