All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Sunday, August 19, 2007

some people just dont have the ability to keep things simple

a post of history, 8th august!

and sometimes it bothers me, still

so it was decided,
"He opens doors that no one can shut, and shuts doors that no one can open" (rev 3:7b Marklaiversion)

i didnt end up going for FOP although i almost went for it. instead, i ended up attend SOP, streams of praise, and really enjoyed the worship there. while going down for baybeats this year was a totally bad choice, attending wcc and then sop sandwiching it made up for it instantly. both i'd say were life changing worship sessions and at the same time unified, like-minded worship, which leads to wanting to change life. it was just up to me again now. man i am challenged again.. i'd better be. i must, i will, i have to.

its amazing how God actually just changes situations and you just go along with them, not worrying about the things that come along, for these things are the ones that distract us, and while we seek Him and look directly at His direction things just are different ehh? well, we'll see, we'll see.

bay (we will) beats you.. HAHA!

spiderpig spiderpig. we went down to baybeats and intelligently stood in the middle of the mosh pit. while waiting for the band to come on stage, we started to get bored and started to sing why are we waiting, and to alot of other stupid sounding tunes and songs, well spiderpig was one of them. i must say that baybeats wasnt an all good experience, rather, if i'm allowed (who's there to stop me) to say so, it was bad, very bad. and that i feel, was being kind. i shant want to re-live that night over on my blog that it may, somehow stay permenant etched to my brains.

so the next day, i was sandwiched between FOP and SOP, streams of praise, in which God really closed and open doors. went for SOP and was greatly blessed. having left late for the event, i said a short prayer, one heavy one, asking God to grant us seats to enter the so called concert (for a lack of a better word). so when we arrived half an hour late, we were the first to be told that there was no more seats (and actually it was admission by tickets only) and hence i pleaded with them, interestingly, they admitted us telling us that we could stand at the back, we walked up and opened the huge door and to our surprise, there were just two seats for us, as if God had prepared, to take our place. thats all i could ask for, the rest, God gave beyong my imagination.

当觉得没知音时，耶稣出现了!

i was dumbfounded. how could a God, so majestic, how could a God, so all powerful, say that He was my friend. yesh, i could sing that song, but now, i know and He said that to me personally. awestruck should be the word. and besides being blessed by the worship, the songs, the ministry, we blessed too, by praying, for you. (:

now back to today's post. or was it yesterday's.

to you whom it may concern

you rmb me saying about your 2nd guy coming along the way and now things get complicated, sometimes, when life gets boring, we accidentally wish for the wrong things, and well, when its all over and done with, darling, turn back and laugh at what we said, and how much its all so intertwined.

its these times i am happy that i am a guy, or, she wasnt so persistent? or maybe, i'm just not worth it. and hey, we all learn and grow up from it dont we?

i will say, love, as complicated as it is, its as simple as it is. basically, love, is more than an emotion. love rationally, "love moderately", and some people just need to grow up to understand that whole love issue dont we? but sometimes we just wished it was as simple as it is complicated, or as complicated as it is simple. and then we just sit there wondering what just had hit us, or would we really just sit there or already be lying down. sometimes its a mystery as to it all. just, be very careful.

half of me shouts out to redress my apparent iniquity (in your opinion), and half of me says, be nice. and while the be nice part says be nice, it also says, sometimes you have to be evil to be kind. there's always someone who has to play baddie in the movies of everyone's life right? and i know, im no mr. goodie, far from it, and well, i've just spoken to a mr. niceguy who is forced into a mr baddie situation. but i guess, man proposes, heaven disposes, man chooses. at some point of our lives, we just have to be mr baddie.

nobody said it was easy.

and i apologised to a friend of mine for always being a wetblanket. and honestly, i do feel bad for doing that at times, and its like, cant you just be nice and sugar coat it? rawrs.. yesh, we'll get back to the topic of selfcontrol and truth in love eh?

truth in love, mark, arh, ok did you just fail that lesson this time? fire fight and control in all.

its how the world just looks at things, the matter of perception, the matter of world view. and then, we're back to the relative truth, which is something that i dont so want to go into now.

i went to popeye's yesterday, or erm, the date above's tmr. all the way to the airport. i dare say that i enjoyed myself, the mashed potatos, and the company, something new i guess, though i'm still not so much into fast food. like who can live on fast food? and if you just said aye, erm, watch supersize me please.

now thats some paradoxal world we have eh?

someone, ok i know that someone, once told me that we're always living in dilemma, and its not in the getting out of the dilemma, but more so, living and balancing it well. quite an interesting way of loving at it. its like saying that you can choose that black or white, or no, choose and have the black and white. and i'm not saying that black is bad and white is good. the concept of imperfection in both. something like individuality against the communal living. find out more, i shant want to elaborate such a thing here. and it'd not be complete, and i think this is enough to set things almost where they are.

my lsat two weeks are kinda spent on church and cf stuff, like a whole lot, and i guess i'm not so much the kind who'll just plonk it all here. i'm sorry, i'm just myself..

"abaaa caaadabra" someone chanted, this is for you, love ya! (:

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 5:16 PM

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