All i Ever Want To Do iS Worship . . .

Thursday, April 30, 2009

esoterism isn't as fun as it used to be

two weeks, fifteen days, seemed like eternity, and i wonder what two months would feel like, and i wonder what three years would then be like after. but i know, God will sustain us, watch over us, protect us, and we are, we are, in His big, almighty, loving Hands.

i'm more afraid of the days that i know i can survive without, than the days i know i cant.

so remember, His Love, His promises, His Word.

so embrace the silence, the words unspoken, the spaces ungoverned..

爱在记忆中找你

我對你這一生哪個可比
我與你差一些永遠一起
邂逅時間場地似連場好戲
要自何頁說起 Wow Ho

愛太重深呼吸欠缺空氣
愛太美輕輕的卻載不起
愛情來到時候似明媚天氣
它走了突然驟變雪落雨飛

*如果可以恨你全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想放下你還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離*

你太遠該怎麼說對不起
你太近一轉身卻已高飛
快樂也酗茧u 似場流星雨
一眨眼就如幻覺怕又記起

我情願我狠心憎你我還在記憶中找你

- 林峰

oh gosh, this post is long overdue. its the 23rd of May. gosh gosh gosh gosh..!

so here goes nothing. (:

well, i miss the girls, seriously, i do. (:

this past month, or since the last time i blogged, (almost) two months then, a lot of things has happened. i'm surprised that i'm still alive i guess. well, it may not have seemed so to you, that it was almost a kinda living hell to me.

But He has never let me go through it all, alone.

i realised that recently i've been using this term alot, have absolutely no idea where i got it from, = but as i look back at the past few months, the ups and down, the unpleasant things that happened, i can see the footprints of God in these, i can see how faithful He's been, how merciful.

i know the problem that i'm facing, of why i cant have a good post out, besides the point that i dont really feel like, and that i'm really lazy. i guess that there's been so much happening, i dont know where to start from, i dont know where to focus on. however, as i look back, there's so much to be said, yet there's so little to be said.

thank you twin, for walkin me through the past week, its been such a short week at work, but then, it's the longest week i've ever had in the past one year plus in army. seriously, thanks for keeping my sanity, for saying things so nicely, and yet so plainly, thanks for being twin! (: and i thank God for you.

when i asked for favour, you poured out upon me, as if the heavens opened,
when i asked who you were, you said, you were my friend, you were my brother, you are my Lord, you are my God.
when i asked what i needed, you said you were more than the value of gold, you said you are more than the air that i breathe, you said that you are more than everything that i ever needed.
when i said, oh Lord, help me, you walked with me, in my pain, in my weakness, in my wreck, in my distraught, you held my hand, you supported me, and were my spine, you taught me to walk, and were my legs, you held my heart and told me, it is Mine.
Lord, never make me strong again, that i may be weak, so that you may be Strong.
Father, never make me love again, that all these earthly things are worthless, so that i may Love for an eternity, for your eternity.
Lord, never satisfy my soul, that i may be thirsty, so that i may drink from those Living Waters everyday.
Father, i acknowledge that you are worth it, and all these, they are all worth it.

愛是不保留
作曲：盧永亨‧編曲：Aubrey Suwito‧作詞：盧永亨

常聽說世界愛沒長久，
哪裡會有愛無盡頭？
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有，
一刻燦爛便要走！

而我卻確信愛是恆久，
碰到了你已無別求；
無從解釋、不可說明的愛，
千秋過後仍長存不朽！！

誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭？
至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手；
看，血在流反映愛沒保留，
持續不死的愛到萬世不休！
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有，
要將一切盡獻於我主的手；
**我已決定今生再沒所求，
惟望得主稱讚已足夠！

**重唱

but it has caught a new meaning for me now.

MarkSae, Da-jie Bid Goodbye at 11:47 AM

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